Five thirteen nineteen

Five thirteen nineteen

If you found me because of Max, please read this, as it is one piece of what I want to express.  I think about the next girl sometimes. I know that he will use me against her. He did it to me with the last…

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(I wrote this as an answer to an anonymous tumblr question which asked, “Have you ever dealt with depression?“) Yes. As a teenager, I told my mom I wanted to kill myself so often that she sent campus security to each of my classes to have…

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Three, Twenty, Nineteen

Three, Twenty, Nineteen

It’s wild how easy it’s been and how free I’ve felt. I experienced all the terrible feelings one can feel during the relationship, over and over and over again, from the beginning up until the end; now I feel relief. He used to hate allowing…

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Three, Twelve, Nineteen

Three, Twelve, Nineteen

I left as soon as I found out and everything has been so lovely since A surplus of friends, I’ve had to reinstate mid-day naps I feel peace and love, all around me Today I walked home from an audition, that felt so nice One…

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Today

Today

When I’m not writing I think about the things I want to remember, by writing them, but when I’m writing, I can’t remember the things I didn’t want to forget.     I have grown to hate writing because it doesn’t “give me anything” because…

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(Career) (Change)

(Career) (Change)

When I left teaching, I supported myself with my retirement money, but didn’t save and didn’t plan well for what to do when it was gone. It was the first time I had ever had MONEY and NO RESPONSIBILITIES. I learned who I was and…

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BEAUTY FROM JANUARY

BEAUTY FROM JANUARY

<books> How Emotions Are Made by Lisa Feldman Barret People feel depressed when they fall short of their own ideals, but when they fall short of a standard set by others, they feel anxious. Even when you feel no sense of agency when experiencing emotion,…

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In Honor of Orlando

In Honor of Orlando

(June 16th, 2012, thoughts following the tragedy) I’m fragile today, as all of us are. I’ve thought a lot about the victims and the people they loved and the people who loved them and how this is effecting the entire LGBT community as well as…

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Six Books That Silenced The Internal Screaming, For Me

Six Books That Silenced The Internal Screaming, For Me

I disagree with 9 out of 10 of the life-lessons I was taught in my formative years. I was raised in a fundamental, biblical literalist, born-again Christian household by a single mother. I was an only child and I was an only daughter, which led…

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CATHERINE:2017

CATHERINE:2017

You may have watched Jenny Slate and Dean Fleisher Camp’s webseries CATHERINE: A STORY IN 12 PARTS when it first came out in 2013 like I did, but I HIGHLY SUGGEST you rewatch it now. Re-experiencing this in the midst of turmoil and madness and…

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